Cacao guardian &
rebirthing breathwork
facilitator
Irene Hubers
My name is Irene. With sharing my story, I desire to give you an insight in how my life story has shaped the woman I am right now and how this has led to what I’m offering you with Autentik.
The journey of returning to and OWNING my Autentik self has required a deep allowance of myself to learn how to take up space in this world again, a practice of how to claim my needs and desires, and overall it’s taken a sense of self responsibility I was not expecting.
About irene
My dis-cover journey
It began with my birth story – entering this world initially being separated from my mom the first 6 weeks as a newborn baby and twin. The way I came into this world imprinted a lot of fear and doubt on my emotional body’s memory. There was a deep part of my body that didn’t feel safe in this world. I grew up often feeling like I was a burden, that there wasn’t any space for me. This led to deep feelings of insecurity and lack of worthiness.
Going through childhood and adolescence I didn’t feel the space to discover and develop my unique identity, because I didn’t want to be a burden or take too much space. Next to that I was insecure about my being and worthiness in general and even more about my body, due to scars on my abdomen because of surgeries and gaining weight in puberty/ adolescence.
In early adulthood I didn’t create the life that was the norm where I grew up. I felt like a failure not managing to fit in. This resulted in trying hard to get external validation through my work as a nurse, studying, sports performance, losing weight and always playing the role of caretaker for friends and family.
Eventually, at age of 32, I was totally depleted, physically first of all, but also mentally and emotionally. I was diagnosed with an eating disorder. Recovering from this eating disorder literally forced me to begin to prioritize my own nourishment and needs. It was truly the first step from putting other people’s well-being first towards self-care, self-love and self-acceptance as my top priority.
In the time I was finishing my eating disorder treatment I met the biggest love of my life and it was the safety and acceptance I felt with her that really opened my heart towards allowing myself to dis-cover my Autentik self.
My spiritual journey began in September 2020. Since that moment I have experienced and worked with many different healing modalities such as somatics, energetic therapy, human design and more. But the two biggest yet subtle medicines were discovering ceremonial cacao and (rebirthing) breathwork. Both were gateways for me to shift from navigating through life led by expectations and needs of others to a life led from the place of my heart and my Autentik self.
Working with cacao and breath also brought deeply painful experiences. My spiritual journey made clear to me that there was an underlying unhappy and to some extent depressed feeling present. This underlying feeling persisted made me fall into rigid patterns and act from limiting beliefs, which was also causing friction in my marriage.
Slowly but surely, I was letting go of so much that was no longer aligned with my life anymore and at times it was utterly heartbreaking. Yet, I knew it was necessary to take the steps forward and ultimately live in alignment with my truest desires. I realized this was again a moment in my life to unapologetically give myself permission to put my own well-being first.
I didn’t know it at the time but my entire being was going through a death and a rebirth. I divorced, quit my job and decided to take one of the biggest leaps of my life and become an entrepreneur: Autentik was born.
With Autentik I hold space for people that want to embark or are on a similar journey. One from living life according to expectations and needs of others, afraid of not being loved and accepted, towards living a life from a heart- centered place of unconditional self-love and self-acceptance. A journey of dis-covering and embracing their unique and Autentik self..
Autentik
by Irene Hubers